A morning twist

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Sometimes you have to listen to your gut feelings. When you are ready to do something (change jobs/retire etc.)  and when you are not ready to do things.   Theres a lot to be said about gut feelings, Sometimes you just know.  When you are in love,  What you just need to buy, and more life altering decisions.You just run with it,

I want to be ready to retire. (from the official job) I want to move on  but I guess there is something more I need to do there.   I don't know what it is. I am going into a situation I don't like, don't want to move. I cant stand; well higher ups and the decisions that where made .  But I am not ready to walk away. I'm not ready,  I am too connected to friends and clients,  So I made a decision to pull back the retirement decision and move forward for now ;and to keep on preparing for what will be next. 

 A long long time ago I visited Niagara falls with my husband. We flew.  We were supposed to fly into Buffalo  and get a rental car and drive across the border to the Canadian side.   There was a rain storm in NYC which delayed then cancelled the flight. I remember calling the motel on the hour almost  reporting our  lateness, In the days when there weren't  cell phones but pay phones.   Our flight was cancelled and they put us on a flight to Syracuse and we were hoping to get a connecting flight to Rochester,  I remember taking off in the airplane and looking out at  the sky which above the storm was pretty clear. I said to him I don't  know where we are going and how we are getting there but I guess we are going.    Much like this morning and my decision. And so it goes my twist of gratitude this morning.  That memory.



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